***Trigger warning this post discusses mental health challenges.
So over the past few years, I have become open about some of my battles and struggles. But owning a business does carry a lot of pressure. The need to quit everything and make millions and be like Gary Vee. It’s been tough and I think one of the ways I have kept myself going is by admitting some days have been/will be tougher than others. I don’t want to sensationalise what I have been through but instead, look at what has worked for me.
I have felt anxious over the past year, there were times I couldn’t even speak and wanted to physically get up and run away from situations. I felt a sense of “not being good enough” and when someone makes you feel inferior because of how you look, the colour of your skin then let me tell those of you who don’t understand it hits you 10x harder. With a number of letdowns, it just felt like I was back to my worst year 2011/2012. It gets better, I know it does. I have felt like this before and I certainly can beat it. From a very young age, I have kept things bottled up, now and again on my Instagram, I’ll share personal feelings. Which is strange as opening up to strangers on the internet has created a virtual family. The three key things that have helped me are:
- Write (hence the blog post)
I have found the best form of therapy is at the gym. But earlier this year, I invested in PT/nutritionist. I have been an avid gym-goer, but I would comfort eat and oh the weekends spent at dessert places well it started to make me feel guilty. Having someone help me understand how the body works and how you can’t outwork a bad diet has changed my life, so thank you Olga. I also try to spend one day a week walking for a couple of hours, switching off from the tech world does wonders. I don’t have a car anymore, but have found places nearby or jumping on the train and venturing a little further can give you the peace of mind you need.
2. Go outdoors
One of the biggest battles has come from the mind, and in order to cope with it, I have had to remove myself from situations. Yes, it is challenging, I have come to realise that all my struggles have made me stronger and even when it doesn’t feel like it I can beat it. Reading books about mindfulness has helped me switch my mind off and take me away from my device.
- Write down 3 things you are grateful for
- Thoughts are just that, thoughts
- Never give up, it gets better.